I think I have to tell how I feel now.
So when I came back home it wasn’t easy. At first I have spoken only English. I cried a lot in the first days. It was hard to know, that a big part of my life is over now. I had to speak German again. I had to find my place in my biological family. It is harder than I thought. I have changed, they have changed. And I had one of the best years in my whole life. Every day abroad was so special. Waking up and getting ready for a school, where you don’t even understand everything. You learn something new about the culture nearly every day. AND you are responsible for everything you do.
Than you come back home. The people are living their everyday life. They just lived the last year. The year wasn’t as special to them as it was to you. And that’s why they’re asking questions. One question I have heard a lot of times is: ‚How was it?‘ But tell me, how do I describe on year in a few sentences. And when you start talking about your year (because it was so special) the people get bored after a while, maybe because they don’t understand. The first time back in Germany was exciting. I found out new things about Germany. I looked for differences and similarities between Denmark and Germany. But after about 8 week I got bored. There was nothing special about my life anymore. Every day was like I have known it my whole life. It was so different to my days in Denmark and I had the feeling that Denmark has been much better. It was getting harder and harder to get up every day to go to school and do more boring things. I wasn’t feeling like going to school, meeting friends or even read a book. I basically was in my bed sleeping or starring at the ceiling. Every time my parents asked me to do something together with them I was getting annoyed. I couldn’t understand my self. My life was boring. If I have to describe it with coulours I would say my life was just grey. Then I stopped talking to my friends. But I have one friend and she was looking for me. She tried to help me. So eventually I went to a psychologist and now I can see the light again.
My life isn’t grey. It is exciting just in another way. I am travelling to find my self. I want to know who am I and what I want. It won’t be easy but with the help of my family, my friends and also strangers I will get it. And I will never regret the Experience I have gotten through my Exchange year.